I Love the Merry-go-Round

I love me now.
Now that I know that the merry-go-round of emotional traumas and suffering I have experienced were omens and were inevitable if I continued to be at war with my own truth.
Authenticity was hard to find.

I love me now.
Now that I know that to convince the world of anything means I must wait until life’s carousel is at the right spot, at the right time.
I must be patient with others and with myself.
Respect was hard to find.

I love me now.
Now that I know that worrying about what part of the circle has passed, or is about to come takes away from enjoying the moment that matters; here and now.
Fulfilment was hard to find

I love me now.
Now that I know that the ball is always rolling and that I cannot always be right; I find I’m much less wrong.
Modesty was hard to find

I love me now.
Now that I know that desiring to be in a different arc of the circle, is pointless.
That everything and everybody in my life is helping me grow.
Maturity was hard to find

I love me now.
Now that I know that things happen
as they are supposed to happen.
Invariably I am in the right circles, at the proper time and I can be calm and serene.
Self confidence was hard to find

I love me now.
Now that I know how to enjoy the roundabout and how not to steal time from myself, I’ve stopped making big plans for a future of which I’m ignorant, instead I’ll do what brings me joy, makes me dance and encourages my heart to sing my songs, to my tunes, my rhythm with my own audaciousness.
Simplicity was hard to find

I love me now.
Now that I know to be free of habits that are bad for me. Fast people, fast things fast situations – lead to spinning too fast, where the centrifugal force of temptations used to pull me away from myself.
When I surround myself with good people, good things, good situations I recognise how much healthier I am.
Loving me took a long time

I love me now
Now that I know disturbances in the circles of my own mind weaken and sicken me. My mind is only an ally to the whole of me if it stays connected to my heart.
Wisdom is the hardest to find

I love me now.
Now that I know I need fear no more.
People, including me, will be jealous, covetous, pompous and argumentative. However, there was one almighty collision back there in the depths of time and from it me, and life with its infinite circles emerged.
Life was hard to find.

I love me now; now that I can say it without fear.